my weakness

currently in love with Yonghwa

i just realize.
I'll be having problems speaking and writing in english IF i didn't speak and write for a long time.
yes, i was going to change the plot of my story and when i started to type it. I went blank.
i went what the heck? i don't know what should i write and i don't even know how to write awesome sentence.

I have to read novels.i have to write more. I have to speak english.
reading subtitles will help?
maybe a bit?
i don't know..
shesshh.. it frustrates me.