this decision

there's always a wrong and a right whenever it comes to a decision making.
but why must it be so worrying to do something wrong?
mistakes are fine they say.
but seems like mistakes are the only thing people wanted to avoid.
why? because they can see the flaw?
why? because you'll regret them?
well of course mistakes are to be regret. to be regret means that you're going to learn from it.
learn from them. but dear me,
taking a step out of yourself is something you should have done a long time ago.
feeling so restless of what comes out from people's mouth scares the hell out of you.
to strive for perfection and to please everyone around you.
does that makes you feel better?
seeing them smile while you rot inside is the best solution?
Yes, i'm rebelling against everything. i want to do stuffs i can't.
i want to do stuffs people say no too.
i want to do stuffs that makes me feel better as a person.
eventhough what i'm doing is wrong. but that, i will never know.
then what am i suppose to do?